Have you ever watched a baby? Whenever any emotional situation occurs the first thing most babies go for is their binkie - that little thing they stick in their mouths. Now for most babies, as soon as that binkie hits their mouth they calm down and become quite "mallable". But if they can't find that binkie, things escalate in a hurry. You see, that binkie is something they can control, something they can grab hold of and manipulate to meet their needs. When everything in their world has turned to chaos, that binkie brings a point of focus, a point of control to calm their world, something they can touch and feel and taste.

So I have been pondering this binkie thing, and God begins asking a question to me and you (sometimes I really don't like it when He starts this!) ....

What is your "binkie"? What do you turn to when your world is going to chaos? What do you look to for comfort and security  when everything goes to "hell in a handbasket"? What fills that gap when everything you have counted on gets taken away? What is your "binkie"?

He wants us to examine ourselves, look in the crevices, get honest with Him and acknowledge those things we look and go to when we get romped on, when our world falls apart, when our emotions go bonkers, when we are facing losing everything. He wants us to look at what we turn to rather than Him.

There is a reason He wants us to examine ourselves. He already knows the answer! He knows what we turn to! But we have been playing charades and pretending we're these awesome Christians doing so well walking with the Lord - publicly! But privately we turn to booze, porn, masturbation, fighting with our spouses, apathy and "poor me" - anything except grabbing hold of the horns of God's altar and not letting go until we get hold of God! God says if we will get real with Him, acknowledge where we have missed the mark, where we have built our own altars and high places, where we have turned to everything except God - if we will acknowledge these things and cry out to Him to ignite the fire on our altars, that He will light the fire again.

He says, the reason we have kept failing and are falling deeper in depression and all the other things is our failure to be honest with Him. We keep the wall up trying to protect our hearts and save our lives. And all it does is kill us. Dr. Larry Crabb in his book, "Inside Out" talks about the hole in our inner man that can only be filled by God, but because we refuse to humble ourselves we try to fill that hole with anything we can get our hands on, and fall deeper into those things that kill us!

E.M. Bounds in his book, "E.M. Bounds on Prayer", says "One might well ask, whether the feebleness of our desires for God, the Holy Spirit, and for all the fulness of Christ, is not the cause of our so little praying, and of our languishing in the exercise of prayer? Do we really feel these inward pantings of desire after heavenly treasures? Do the inbred groanings of desire stir our souls to mighty wrestlings? Alas for us! The fire burns altogether too low." "Again: we might well inquire - have we that desire which presses us to close communion with God, which is filled with unutterable burnings, and holds us there through the agony of an intense and soul-stirred supplication?"

This process of looking at and acknowledging who we are and what we turn towards to appease the longing within us, and then breaking that pattern and grabbing hold of God takes work, sweat, tears and travailing before the altar of God. It requires us becoming men and women of prayer. I have had Pastors say, "well, that works for Darrel, but you don't have be like him....." No! Liar, liar, pants on fire! No! Folks we must become men and women of prayer. We must come to a place of burning with Gods passion and fire for souls. We must break the mold. The whole process starts with acknowledging who we are, what we have turned to, and changing our focus so we are looking at Christ.

God wants the fire put back on the altar. He wants passion stirred back alive again. He wants our focus turned back to Him. Foks, the day is drawing to a close where the window of opportunity to change will be gone and we will reap what we have sown, but IT IS STILL LIGHT! IT IS STILL DAY! WE STILL HAVE A WINDOW OF OPPORTUNITY TO CRY OUT TO GOD AND CHANGE OUR FOCUS!!!

The Moravians, in the 1800's, in the Northeast corner of Germany, set themselves to change their lives and grab hold of God. They started a 24 hour a day, 7 day a week prayer meeting that lasted over 100 years! Every hour of the day and night someone was on the altar in prayer. Every revival since that time was spawned out of the Moravian revival! Hearts were changed, lives were changed, priorities were changed, everything was changed as God was given preiminence!

This process of prayer and waiting on the Lord requires change in our lives. What kind of change? Well, that depends on you and God, and the call He has put on your life! There is no clear cut, simple answer - except you must become men and women of prayer! As you become a man or woman of prayer and contend with God, He will talk with you and guide you down the path He has prepared just for you.

So - you have a choice. Do you want to continue where you have been walking? Do you want your prayer life the same as it has been? Are you content with your spiritual walk the way it is? Or do you long and hunger for something more? Do you long to see God's fire come alive in your bones and literally consume you with His passion? Do you want change in your life? The choice is yours - change is literally a knee away! Cry out to Him! Fight with God until your heart is changed. Get real with Him and He will change you!

I have a prayer button on my website (you are either on my website or on e-Sword's Daily Prayer, so the website is www.godspropheticvoice.org). I'd love to pray with you. The change comes from your time with God, but sometimes it helps having someone pray with you. Send me a prayer request and I will pray for you.

If you are in the Tacoma, WA area on Jan 1, 2010 then stop in at Gateway Church for a Prophetic Impartation Service with Dr. Greg Romine, Pastor Christine and Dion Mason, Jeff Lancaster, and myself. I believe God has some awesome things in store!

So - what is your "binkie"?

In Christ's Love,
Darrel